today ii quarelled wib her again..everytime we quarrel over trival matters ii think it's really hard to carry on being friends..Am ii at fault or is it her fault? Is my character really so bad tat people abhore me? Am ii sensative bout e issue? If it's not my character tat is bad, why all of our so called 'shared' friends flock to her when we quarrel and ii am left with none?Even wadd ii tot was a best friend, heather also left me for her ALWAYS..all tis questions in my mind are without answers..today morns..ii passed my nyaa booklet to miss see first without waiting for her since she haven arrived..when she came ii told her tat she can pass it to miss see since she jus lik a few steps away.she chided mii and said walau never wait for me..den she fiddled thru her stuff and got her booklet..gave mii e booklet for no reason.I asked her wad?She say HOLD LARHS..ok ii hold..den she wan mii to accompany her to look for miss see when it's soo near..ii pointed to her e direction bud she still insisted on mii bringing her dere..okk fine..ii tolerated wib tat incident budd in e noon..another dispute broke out between us..tis time..ii wanted to borrow a book of notes from her which belongs to another friend which she borrowed first.ii ask her if she needs it today she say no she copying it on sat..okk so ii ask her can lend mii today?she say no..ii ask her why she say she don't wan carry home tml when ii return to her..ridiculous..budd ii accepted..ii offered to make an effort since ii am borrowing it frm her..so ii say ii would bring it back to sch in an hrs time..she said no..she borrowed it first..also it's not her book to even decide..ii said IF ii could get e owner's approval would she lend..she didn't answer and attitude me..okk tat hit my limit..today atiqah askk mii whether ii liked her..ii tot ii was in no place to comment cos ii am not PERFECT myself either..ii just said tat sometimes ii feel tat she self-centered..ii told her tat we often quarrel and ask her is my personality or character so horrible?atiqah replied tat it is not my fault and tat sometimes she herself find her self-centered also..ii dunch noe if atiqah was trying to cheer mii upp or wad bud ii think being friends wib her iish very tiring..ii am TIRED! I don't see a problem with me with my sec 2 friends we were close or even different klas friends..budd with her we practically FIGHT all day..tis iish soo tiring..ii can't stand her aniimores..